cOnfus~ED Paranoid

i'm grinning

2009-06-12T06:55:00.001+08:00

listening to - hoedown throwdown - miley cyrus

salam all.
it has been a horrible week for me last week.
and guess what?
i am back!

thanks to you and you who made my week better this week!
it takes time to heal bebeh.

right now,
life's a bliss,
alhamdullilah...

passing cloud

2009-06-10T08:02:00.000+08:00

listening to ; butterfly fly away - miley cyrus & billy ray cyrus

salam all.

i was there, least expecting to see you & the rest.
somehow my eyes got lock on something very familiar and i know you're there.
the moment i saw you and them, i got my knees all weak and wobbly.
i did not realise i missed you oh so much.

i called out for you.
not a single turn to look out for who called who.
maybe you didn't hear, u guys were rushing.
and you left...

this feeling sucks!

2009-06-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

listening to : so what - pink

it really has been a while, and i miss u dearly...

how else do i say it? shoots! it'll heal wif time...
hmm...u take care.

need time alone

2009-06-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

listening to : battlefield - Jordyn sparks

salam all.

am using psp to type this up now.
as the title says,i need some space for a short while. need some time to straighten my thoughts...

when the going gets tough,it's really is a rough journey to go through. but we got to move on somehow...
some might ask "hey beb,what's up?"
all i can say is, time will tell. somethings r just meant to be secret. right now, i do not wish to share.

do not worry my friends. i will be fine...

FASHIOGRAPHY : the flea market

2009-05-24T17:37:00.000+08:00

COME AND SUPPORT US!!!

where are you now?

2009-05-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

listening to : mannequin - katy perry

Never sure what your intention was.
Wouldn't want to relive the sour memories.
Hence me playing hard to get.
I didn't realise of your good traits till a point of a time.

I'm simply blissed just knowing you're here.
Butterflies all over upon hearing you say "Hello"
Cheeks all flushed when I'm with you.
But why do I still deny that you are not the one?

Assuarance is all I'm asking for.
You've done it again just when the mood is right.
I don't get you.
Do you have to?

You said yes.
You said no.
You said maybe.
You said maybe not.

So which one?
You're not my rebound,
cos you made me have rebound.
Maybe I am YOUR rebound.

Where are you now?

2009-05-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

Jaiiiiii HOOOOOOO

2009-05-17T13:24:00.000+08:00

Watched Ellen the other day and her audience wanted some fusion dance.
And so Ellen featured this :

Cool kan?!

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when the going gets tough...

2009-05-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

For you, you and you & me.

Keep the faith,dear :)
*464*

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an up-hill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an up-hill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

irrit lah sey

2009-04-12T06:43:00.000+08:00

listening to : poker face - lady gaga

weiii...
irritating lah sey.
eeek~

When The YOUNG is still Night.

2009-04-06T09:44:00.000+08:00

listening to : poker face - lady gaga

salam all.

when saturday night is still young, ooops...
as yati says: "the young is still night"
when everyone was just back from work, weddings, invitations and whatever.
when a high school junior was reunited with us.
we slacked at the usual.

it was soooo random,
din selamat called to say loloq with lorry and let's chill somewhere else.
does west coast park sounds great?
hmm...

Of course!
and so....we board the truck and this is what loloq brought with him on his truck...
TSK TSK TSK....

err..erm...

2009-04-02T15:08:00.000+08:00

Just need an avenue to vent out.

OUCH! It HURTS!
Something stabbed me right through the heart.
errr.... ouch ouch.

ok done.

these words

2009-04-02T14:41:00.000+08:00

Salam...

These words are my own...

I MISS YOU.

The day I got PUNK'd

2009-03-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Spotlight - Jeniffer Hudson.

Salam all.

I'd like to say much much much THANKS EH to my Shitness Crew for the SUSPECTED SURPRISE B'day Bash.
You got me this time. I won't go easy on the next surprises!!!
Watch your steps people!

It was a week before my birthday when Yati texted me saying "Guys, are you free next Weds?"
So I replied, perhaps maybe but after 7pm. Whats up?
and so her response was "Aku nak belanja kau makan. Kan birthday kau..."
Please note that her 1st message was "GUYS ........"
I already smelt fish. So I contain my suspicion.

The day draws nearer and I never reminded her anything about our date.
Until a day before my birthday.
I remember clearly that it was on Sunday we chilled at our usual spot.
Almost everyone was there.Almost.
Sopi, Jenap, Yani, Dayah, Barney, Yati.
Everything that was being said became a song.
When Barney said she itching going for a karoake.
So I said LETS!!!
I think Yati panicked. She said...
"Takpe, Kita pegi dua orang aje ok nanti Weds..."

At the same time my eyes was on Sopi whose eyes was on Barneys.
They were exchanging "glances" as though they trying to hide something.
I smelt double fish!

At the same time my mind was thinking...
eh eh... how come both of us aje? like funny lah.
then what's with the sms with GUYS in it.
Funny lah!

When I provoked Yati...
"Kau betul ke nak pegi kita dua orang aje..."
and she die die said yes.
cos she can't afford to belanja the rest as well if they were to follow.
It got me thinking, the rest needn't know that you belanja me mah...

I test market with barney.
Told her to tag along and I'll pay for her share.
She kept saying she can't cos she gotta help her sis.
Ok fine.

One night before the surprise, I made a reason for Yati to actually postponed or just treat me dinner in Woodlands. She die die wanted me to follow her all the way to town. Die Die wanted me to go!
I smell the WHOLE MARKET already.
So I test market with her.
"You confirm confirm going both of us only right?"
she said yes!!!
so I warned her,
"Yelah, kita berdua nanti tetiba jadi ramai..."
and she HAHA at me.
oh yes...
I definitely smell FOUL FISH! Very strong you know!

The day came.
I'm totally prepared. I know what's coming.
Remember, Barney said she's helping her sis when suddenly at 3pm she said she bored at the shop...
??? Puzzled. Cos she went there at noon. How come already bored at 3pm ehk?
So she said she'll meet us in town.
Ok.

Met Yati and made our way to town.
She was busy with her phone. Suddenly she received a phone call. she said it was barney,
then while she was talking on the phone she said,
"Oh kau naik taxi gi Forum eh?"
I interfered.
"ASAL FORUM EH?"
then she continue talking and talking.
i asked,"ASAL FORUM?"
So yati "action" ask...
"a'ah eh barney, asal forum? OOO Kau terasa nak karaoke eh? Tak jadi makan lah ni? Lah pulak..."

Haha. It confirmed my suspicion.
I'm going to have me surprise at Cashbox karaoke studio!
So went to collect Yati's camera at Wisma then made our way to Borders.
Barney gave me that tired face and pissed off face. As though she just came back from "work"
She was being very difficult that day! Gosh!
Bought a light meal at BK and it was close to 8pm.
Suddenly Barney wanted to pee!
I told her to hold and pee at Cashbox.
She said she couldn't hold any longer!
Ish!
Yati was worried there might not be any rooms for us.

And they were VERY VERY LONG IN THE LOO.
Testing my patience sey both of them!
After toilet, si Barney wanted to go Guardian or Watson.
Lah pulak.
I looked at the time. It's almost 8.30pm. PUKUL BAPE NAK BALIK NI.
and afraid there might not be any rooms available!

Suddenly at Watson I saw FENDI.
eh? Fendi?
EH JULI??!!
Juli arouse my suspicion by saying...
"aku tak tau pape... aku tak bersalah..."
huh? what saying you gitu face i gave her and barney.
and barney gave me a reason...
"maybe she didn't expect to see you there oso! that's why she say like that"
Benefit of the doubt lah kan. BUT I DOUBT!

ok nevermind.
I reminded Yati again, Don't let me sue you in court k love. lol~
And barney kept getting calls from so called sister of hers. Very irritatingly she answered the phone. But I know she don't speak to her sis like that. That person must be somebody else!
Suddenly as we're about to cross the road to go cashbox, Barney had a really really anoying sudden urge to smoke. DIE DIE MUST SMOKE FIRST!
Very irritating.
I NAG AND NAG AND NAG.
8.30pm already, still here. dono got room or not. what time want to go home. nag nag nag.
ALL OF A SUDDEN a TENGKORAK FIGURE walked pass us.
I shouted, REEEENAAAA....REEEENAAAA... eh eh... no respond. WHAT HAPPEN LAH SIA?
I SCREAMED. RINA! RINA! RINAAAA!
Wah lau... rabak pe.

k, we went to the lounge.
NOTE: Yati feared that won't be rooms right?
The moment they went to recption desk, they said,
booked under the name of Ain.
"Lah... DAH BOOK LAH NI... TADI TAKUT SGT TAKDE BILIK!"
pissed off, i sat down.
Skali one of the staff went to them and said bilik dah siap.
she looked at me and gave me that sheepish cheeky "i know it's you they surprising" look.
I frowned at her and smiled.
I smiled all the way. I followed their lead.
I know they wanted me to be infront, Oh no. Not this time.
I was SMILING all the way as I walked behind them!

and you know what.
If you've been to cashbox, normally an unoccupied clean room the door would be open, and the lights will be brightly lit right?
This is not the case.
it's close and the room was dark with the disco ball light on.
I NOT STUPID OK!
lol.

The moment they opened the door, there's DAYAH's LOUD voice together with the rest singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
OH dear...
Eventhough I've suspeced and expected it,
my knees all went weak and wobbly.
Gosh...

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Thank you!

Juli was supposed to be there too, but she couldn't wait and join as it was already late for her.
Thanks eh SHITNESS!!!

Missing masterminds were Aisha and Nadya.
I know you're also behind this bebehs!
THANKS EH!!!!

More than words, darling...

2009-03-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

Bismillahhirrahmannirrahim...

Dedicate "Footprints In The Sand" by Leona Lewis just for you :)

It surely haven't been a smooth month for me, what more for you.
You managed to stay positive and you helped me stay positive - for whatever happen both personally and work related issue, you managed to make me stay sane.
"You gave me strength to carry on" as the song sings...

The fondness we shared can never be understood by them.
I appreciate and thankful for everything, for having you in my insignificant life.
It's beyond words (for I have very limited vocab ;))
(I can't be Edward Monkton wannabe!)
Thank you dearest for being there all the time.

I'm just so so grateful,
I thanked Allah each night for the beautiful fostered relationship we shared.
For HE knows His slave's partners for life best!
For every and any kinds of relationship, HE knows who suits who.
And that is why, we are here today, Thanks to Ilahi Rabbi.

Thank You again, U.

Last figures,
464 :)

tua, tak tua sangatlah

2009-03-23T15:34:00.000+08:00

listening to : dead and gone - T.I ft Justin Timberlake

salam all.

it's 23rd and i turned 23rd.
Alhamdullilah. a year older. hopefully a year wiser?

i need something, like a mission to accomplish.
but let's see...

1. friends and families bugging me DRIVING LICENSE. Argh! (eversinced i tested drive aisha's car, i'm contemplating between auto or manual. lazy to take manual, but it'll be a waste if i take auto!)
2. ok, find boyfriend and elope to some other country.
3. menggembala kambing.
4. taman strawberri.

lol.

ok, i couldn't think of anything else...

Happy Birthday to me :)

a bloody angry post

2009-03-20T15:31:00.000+08:00

listening to : people fucking!

u entered like u're bloody tired and others not.
F u lah wei.
what do YOU bloody hell know about others?
YOU bloody thing people actually have ALL the time and energy to do all the things just so you return to a beautiful castle!

F u lah wei!
You are irritating bugger. so now u think we are bloody selfish...
once or twice can tolerate lah wei...
but everytime? oh no. THAT'S BULLSHIT LAH WEi!
what do you bloody know?
you weren't here to witness all these craps.
AH F U LAH...
u don't even think any of this matters.
anything that matters is just what YOU WANT...

BLODDY HELL, you just want it, YOU DON't NEED IT LAH WEI.
nabei citot.

u just pisses me off lah goondu!
u're a bigger goondu than those goondus i've known!
you're the history of goondu kinds~!

one big F u stupid bugger.

make e bloody effort to please and make the people around u happy lah wei.
it's not all about you lah wei.
you're freaking old. let the rest enjoy the rest of their lives peacefully.
you've had your share.
must you show u are deprieved of happiness?
oh gosh, u're making yourself seems like you're weak!
HAHAHAHAHAHA

YOU'RE WEAK!
HAHAHAHA.
WEAK BASTARD!

This is an angry post.
pardon me.
i can't conceal it any further.

TGIF

2009-03-20T08:08:00.000+08:00

listening to : pushing me away - jonas bros

salam all.

Oh thank goodness its friday!
but what difference does it makes for me?
actually nothing much.
baby sitting again today. Lil Badri is over at my place. he's napping now.
i'm bored cos there's no one to bully!

waiting for him to wake up and we'll be going out for lunch with his brother urfan.
sister wani is out following my aunt to tanah merah with my cousin and all.

somehow i suddenly feel that my friday is darn boring!
gosh.
when night time comes, it's no fun either!

and the most amazing thing is,
CONFESSION OF A SHOPAHOLIC IS OUT TODAY!

yahoo!!!

tell me, are you worth their manipulations?

2009-03-13T16:02:00.000+08:00

listening to : the show - lenka

although i'm exhausted, energy drained and brain dead,
i am still thinking about that one thing. that one problem that me not who faced it.
women in general will not sit still once another woman is in great deal of pain.

however so, to what extend can we lend a helping hand?
how far can a hand stretch if the receiving hand made no effort to stretch as well?
it hurts big time knowing how mankind can manipulate each other, based and judging from a weakpoint.
at time during clear conscience you would be making a very wise decision,but there's almost all the time you would be making a choice which you will regret.

stop hoping. stop believing those empty promises. it's just a way to manipulate you.
common sense, logical thinking helps my dear.
put aside the feelings which will burden you further.

whatever your choice would be, will determine your future and happiness.
i hope you've found your answers from HIM, not your own heart.
because Allah is ALL KNOWING.

Mraz's Jr.

2009-03-11T10:40:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Alasanmu - Exist

Salam all.

Not many people know that Jason Mraz has a kid!
I was doing my routine internet browsing and found this lil cute kid of Mraz's.
They are so alike with the hat and all...

Here he is... Look at their similarities..
The smile and charming look...

Meet BADRI Mraz!

Haha...
Cute aren't he?

human we are

2009-02-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

listening to : you're so gay - katy perry

salam all.

i was thinking,
thinking hard.

being human that we are, nobody is perfect.
and having so much imperfections, we simply can't put smiles to all.
along the way we may hurt a loved one without realising it.

at times we are put in a spot. a spot of guilt - trying to equalise everything to satisfy all.
yet again, being imperfect, we can't.
and again, we are stuck right in the middle.
to please the right or to prevent unhappiness on the left.

majority may win, but we will lose the ones on the minority.
sad as it may seems, these minorities are equally loved.
if only ill feelings does not exist, the world would be a happier place to live.

hoping that one would understand that we do have their interest at heart,
it's just that our path does not cross now, it does at times intertwined.
appreciate those little paths that we met. it doesn't really matter how many times we crossed each other's path, so long when that line is met, we have that enjoyable moment.

it is not one's choice to live this way. it is not one's desire to be this way.
everyone's got their agenda. it does not always tally.
for human we are, our fate has already been written.

it is up to you, where your destiny is.

hoping to see you, at the end of the line.

when mak nenek meets town

2009-02-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

listening to : puspa - st 12

salam all.

it's been a while since i hang out with this makcik!
and oh well, yesterday met her in town.
and just look at how "kecoh" this mak nenek can be when she meets town!

when me not he love...

2009-02-19T09:53:00.000+08:00

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh cause its so damn funny
But I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home one night
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one that's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

shopaholic freak

2009-02-05T05:54:00.000+08:00

listening to : seloka budi - siti

salam all...

i finished reading "the confessions of a shopaholic" and right now i just want to read more.
more shopaholic novels.

oh, how badly i want to go Borders or Kino now.
i'm sure to grab:

- Shopaholic takes Manhattan
- Shopaholic ties the knot
- Shopaholic and sister
- Shopaholic and baby

that would be close to $80!!!

nyahaha.

Virus

2009-02-01T08:19:00.000+08:00

listening to : don't let me get me - pink

salam all.

my apologies to dearest shitness fashiographers.
i could not attend today's fashiography as i'm feeling kinda horrible and terrible now.
would like to stay indoors.
you guys have fun ya.

haven't been feeling well for the past 3 days.
had a sudden tonsilities. with high fever.
shiverings. cold sweats.
woke up every half an hour.
really uncomfortable.

i'm hungry but i can't even swallow my own saliva...
oh shoots.
i'm going back to sleep now.

will meet jenap later at the mall.

oh the confessions...

2009-01-28T10:27:00.001+08:00

listening to : ada masa mata - siti (latest album: lentera timur)

salam all.

my current read : the confessions of a shopaholic by SOPHIE KINSELLA .
i'm sure glued to it for a while, for it relates well to my current life.
nyahaha.

it's more of...
THE CONFESSIONS OF A COMPULSIVE SHOPPER
for me that is.

i will definitely watch the movie!
any joiners out there?
shall we?

"they were beautiful, they were happy,
THEY DIDN'T EVEN NEED ANY MONEY. THEY HAVE MAGIC CARD..."

muahahaha.
oh i wish that's true.
lol.

rasa antara kita

2009-01-27T12:14:00.000+08:00

"Rasa antara kita berdua
Hanya kita yang dapat merasa
Serasi di antara kita
Anugerah tuhan pencipta"

=))

untitled

2009-01-26T14:59:00.000+08:00

star light,star bright

2009-01-22T14:11:00.000+08:00

listening to : lost - katy perry

it's day time you say?
look up in the sky,
and what do you see?
star light, i say.

isn't it wonderful to have a few extra casts?
it sure helps alot in the assignment making.
oh well,
the others are just imaginary friends...

nevertheless, they're fun people to be around with!

reunion bubble tea

2009-01-21T19:03:00.000+08:00

listening to : kalau mencari cinta - ziana zain

salam all.

it feels like a decade long since we last met.
those random meet ups and random venues.

shitness : that explains why we do what we do.

unplanned, we met at our usual spots with not so usual bubble teas.
our dearest lasalle pig needed some help with her assignment.
"playing with spaces and people"

where can we find a relatively large spaces in Singapore?
we made our way to a remote area of my neighbourhood.
and so, we did the bangladeshi's favourite past time.

star gazing at a huge state land.
pictography at a huge piece of land.
modelling at a huge space.

so the people?

myself, barney and sopi who just returned from his KL trip.
of course, the photographer, the mother pig.

thanks ya'll~!!!
it was a great laugh.
random meet ups again, yes?
soon!

i'm in a foreign land

2009-01-02T05:24:00.000+08:00

listening to : some jazz played over the air

salam all.

everywhere i go, i'm surrounded by them.
be it as a patron or over the counter.
oh spare me, not just one kind. a few kinds.

like the uncle said,
"singapore is a land of charity for the foreigners. and here we are, left with limited options."

nyahaha. uncle, u made me laugh lah u.
oh, i don't know this uncle. he's just friendly towards me because,like me, he was bloody frustrated because the sales person did not understand what we were talking about.

hmm...it's either that, or we don't understand their accent.

that's over the counter.

now, lets come to the patrons.
cafes, fast foods, food courts, all i hear was the blabberings and uncontrollable laughter of alienated language. my hobby now, i like to distinguish the different languages. lol.
and right now, there's a woman laughing her heads of. how annoying! oh more of disturbing.

one fine day, a tourist will come to our malls and said to his/her spouse,
"hunn, are you sure we're in singapore? why do i have a feeling we are not?"

and scary enough, they are just not in town, they are practically everywhere.
as near as our neighbourhood.
they might even be your next door neighbour.
shoots.

2009: a year YOUNGER?

2009-01-02T04:07:00.000+08:00

listening to : decode - paramore

salam all.

staff : tak sekolah nari?
ME : huh? skolah? tak tak. *smilez*
staff : oh bukan SECONDARY SCHOOL lagi eh?
ME : *smilez and shakes head*
staff : oh..abe ITE mana?
ME : tak skolah lagi...dah keje.
staff : oh...*shocked face and smiled*

and there comes my hotcake with sausage breakfast set.

staff : enjoy your meal :)

SECONDARY SCHOOL BABE! SECONDARY SCHOOL!
haha.
ohhh... McDonalds made my day bebeh!

on the note

2009-01-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

*ring*ring*

operator : u're calling 911
I NEED AN AMBULANCE.
operator : I got u at 2912. what's the emergency?
THERE IS GOING TO BE A SUICIDE.
operator : who is the victim?
I AM...

*tuut*tuut*tuut....

do not touch the jelly fish...

Oh... i saw hyrul anuar yesterday.
for e 1st time in my real life.
err...
there is going to be a suicide...?
*grinz*

If we could save you, WE WOULD.

2008-12-18T08:31:00.000+08:00

This video clip is dedicated to my dearest friend/sister's mum who was admitted in ICU for cancer.

To Nadia, i know you can pull through. you're one in a million of gazillion people i know who has a very strong heart to go through this ordeal.
love you always.
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Save You - Simple Plan

What originally inspired this song was Pierre's brother's battle with cancer. About 3 years ago, Jay was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin's lymphatic cancer. After 2 years of extremely difficult chemotherapy treatments, he learned that the cancer was gone for now and that he was in remission. After being told he had a 50-50 chance to come out of this alive, he had won his battle.

Save You - Simple Plan.

Take a breath I pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

Ooh Ooh
I wish that I could tell you something
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice it's drowning in the whispers
You're just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take and no matter what I do
I can't make you feel better

Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know that

If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you

Ooh Ooh
If only I could find the answer
Ooh Ooh
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up til it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you

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double surprised

2008-12-16T18:12:00.000+08:00

listening to : dear god - avenged sevenfold

salam all.

have you ever been in a situation where you suddenly lost contact with your very closest friends? the kind of friends which you can tell them anything under the hot sun?
it's not that you lost your phone or migrate to another country or having some kind of student exchange programmed.

you know they are there. you know they are still reachable yet uncontactable.
and you know you bloddy hell misses them like tonnes.

and so you wonder... how's life for them. how are they doing? have they settled their major critical problem. have they found answers to whatever questions they had.

and you yourself got loads of questions, with regards to their absence.
people say, ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER.

how true?
i belive in that.

i was sitting infront of watson while waiting for my god mum to finish her browsing.
i saw someone whom i thought look very familiar. it took me a while to actually guess who it was. i think my brain processor has slowed down. i need to upgrade to the super latest technology. OH! i know her! and i miss her!
so i called out,
"DAYAH!"
and the drama of two girlfriends who haven't met in 2 years (lol. it's months) shrieking infront of watson and huggings and teary eyed began.
and there is like sooooo much to talk about and sooo much to catch up on!
gosh! I MISS HER!

should i continue this or should i update another time of another scenario?

well, i think i shall stop here for now...

oh dearest twilight...

2008-12-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

listening to : leave out the rest - linkin' park

salam all.

it was such a torture to watch the movie. gosh.
went with ummi dearest.
haha. we thought we were in the cinema for 3 hours. but appearantly it was a 2 hour long story.

the story line was draggy and took such a long time to end.
lol.
we ended up commenting on the ACTORS & ACTRESSES instead.
which we don't normally do when we watch movies.

urgh.
met my cousin, kak runi and abg ayie, in the theater and she was also upset.
and she said "the book was better"
haha.

n now i do not have the drive to read the book,
unlike the sex and the city movie.

nevertheless...
the vampires are hot.
ekeke.

never again

2008-12-14T13:45:00.000+08:00

listening to : i never loved you anyway - the corrs.

salam all.

i was there. confused. lost. didn't know what exactly to do.
worried. tawaduk. insaf.
never will i be there again...

looked at her. reminded me a familiar face. pity.
sad. angry? perhaps.

you will never know when's the time.

kepadaNYA...

2008-12-10T04:54:00.000+08:00

Wahai manusia
Sedarlah dirimu
Hidup di dunia, hanya sementara
Dekatkan diri padaNya

Biar terluka
Hapuskan sangsi mu
Ialah petunjuk buat segalanya
Arahkan diri padaNya

oooh...oooh...
Arahkan dirimu...
KepadaNya

- partial lyrics of KepadaNya by Taufik ft Hady
album: suria hati ku

wuhooo.......!!!arrghh...

speechless

2008-12-07T10:06:00.000+08:00

they say one man's meat is another man's poison.
well i guess, my sirloin's steak is a poison...

it's never meant to be juicy and tender.
never.

guys,
i mean it.
taking the time out.

see you guys again soon.

time out guys

2008-12-04T19:47:00.000+08:00

Oh why…

My dearest, I’m taking a break.
Going through a wild emotional rollercoaster.
How long? Only god knows.
I’ll be back once I’ve settled the inner soul.
In the meantime, u guys go have fun ok…

Dayah, please meet up with them soon.
You’re terribly missed.
And before everybody gets back to busy mode, please do catch up k.

Take care loves.

a story of an addict

2008-12-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

At the beginning of the clip the policeman tells the young man :
Tirky...Tirky wake up... wake up and pray a little...you have 3 hours left ..
...................

O you caller of my end summoning me
Carry away my peace to my relations for they have killed me ..
They feared the eyes of the Blamers
If only they Feared on me the heroin's Daggers ..
The things me hands committed when I stole from them
they didn't notice my condition they haven't asked me ..

How many times they knew I'm an addict
they didn't report me they haven't stop me ..
I've surrendered my life to remorse and bawdry
so much that my eyelids had blistered regretting me ..

Where are my laughing companions ??
and where are the one's who screwed my life up and didn't visit me ..
And with what tears my father shall console me ??
and with what regretful poetry he shall bewail me ..

And with what lost face I shall tell you ??
for I'm the obsessive
the opium's seller ..
Until I have ended into a complete loss
so "Tears of my eyes"
Say farewell to my lost life ..

nobody, nobody but youuu...

2008-11-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

listening to : dear god - avenged sevenfold

salam all.

this video is for nani who fell in love with this song just by listening.
ah hah... nani, you would love the dance. ekeke.
thanks aisha for introducing it to us!
we're practically dancing little steps of the song. lol.

nobody - wonder girls

**arrrggghhh!! i found out the person who was gorgeous looking and whose son was cute and has a pretty sweet looking wife, is actually my cousin's friend... prrrffttt... so much of fantasizing... lol~!**

words to ponder

2008-11-29T14:01:00.000+08:00

listening to : finuh - hisham abbas

"Tuhan menjadi kita manusia dengan satu mulut dan sepasang telinga supaya kita lebih banyak mendengar dari berkata-kata"

so hush... once in a while you need to listen instead of just talking your bloody crap.

for once, LISTEN.

fun facts : why why why??

2008-11-28T09:37:00.000+08:00

listening to : sadakny khalas - amr diab

WHY do we dream more profusely when we nap than we do overnight?

"according to the experts we consulted, we dream just as much at night as we do when we take a nap. however, we recall our afternoon-nap dreams much more easily than our dreams at night.

while we are dreaming, our long term memory faculties are suppressed. during the night, our sleep is likely to go undisturbed. we tend to forget dreams we experience in the early stages of sleep. the sooner that we wake up after having our dreams, the more likely we are to remember them.

any situation that wakes us up just after or during the course of a dream will make the sleeper perceive that he or she has been dreaming profusely. Dr Robert W. McCarley, the executive secretary of the sleep research society, told Imponderables that women in advanced stages of pregnancy often report that they are dreaming more frequently. Dr McCarley believes that perceived increase in dreaming activity of pregnant women is prompted not by psychological factors but because their sleep is constantly interrupted by physical discomforts."
{An Imponderables Book by David Feldman}

my lady shitness...

2008-11-27T13:21:00.000+08:00

shitness ladies,
this is for you and me!
haha...

for those applicable only

single ladies - beyonce knowles

on hiatus

2008-11-24T08:38:00.000+08:00

listening to : that's when i love you - asyln

salam all.

i was looking through my camera and phone, i know i'm missing my lovelies shitness.
somehow or rather, i felt that most of them are on hiatus or MIA. i just hope that this won't be for long.
remember guys, we have our next big thing to handle. we have our baby being born.
so... have your break/vacation now, cos we're gonna get busy right after this...

and hey, those without phones...
please eh... haha
replace your phones. i might have an extra phone if you wanna use.
and, those who haven't paid the bills...
please eh...
answer your home phone!

ekeke...
till then darlings,
am eagerly waiting for the randoms!

the birth of our baby!

2008-11-21T08:40:00.000+08:00

OUT SOON...

dearest love, NOR HIDAYAH SELAMAT

2008-11-05T06:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING SIS!!!!
you had your surpises. this is yet another shock for you.
hur hur hur...

the piece below i wrote on the 1st Nov 2008.
read on, love...

dearest bimbotic-talks alot-noisy muncher, vacumm snorer yet lovely sweetheart sis,
Nor Hidayah,

this is a dedication to you,on your very most advance surprise birthday party.
we put alot of head and mind boggling ideas just to create a very shocking moment of your entire life.
you've been the master mind behind all birthdays so far. so this time, you will get a taste of your own medicine. bear with me. this composition is gonna be long. as long as i live, this love letter, shall stay close to you.

TILL DEATH DO US PART!

first of all, i really missed you, darling!
i've been trying my best to avoid from you for a week now. i can't stand it, do you know that.
it took me a while to figure out the best "prank" to lure you to this event.

i didn't realise how sweet you were until this prank comes along.
your worisome and concern really touches me.
youu went to the extend of wanting to come over my crib, just to check on me.
you sacrificed your free time just to go on a date with me.

but i'm very sure, after all that happened, this day, is a day for you to remember.
and oh, the things i told you, aren't true ok!
i'm still a lady who fetish over a guy! lol

anyway, come back to the real thing,

i never really know how we got so closed together. i've forgotten our beginnings.
but the most important part is, we shall stay close with our loved ones including the rest of the shitness inc for eternity.
i may be an insignificant soul in your life, but please know that you have lit my dark sorrows to bright happiness. without you in the group, life will be mundane.

you have brought laughter and joy to this family.and without you being all bimbotic and slenge self, it is just not the same darling.you were there in times of need. you were there to listen in times of rocky moments.
honey,you add sweetness in our relationship - as friends,as brothers and sisters.
darling, you are so dear in our hearts.
dear, your care and concern really touches our heart.
and love, your absence is much felt.
missing you badly, even for just a day.

that is how much you are appreciated. that is how much you are worth.
there is no price. and no other can give us the same prize as you did.

there are ups and downs. but we managed to pull through the odds.
hey, we're brothers and sisters, siblings fight. but they patched up.
because, blood is thicker than water.
i know, we do not have any blood relation with you. it's just a metaphor to describe how close we are.
they say, friendship is thicker than blood!
you are our confidante.
your sincerity and honesty won our hearts.

thanks darling dearest for the great effort for putting us all together!

As years go by, friends may part and scatter, But if heart remains loyal, distance is not a matter!

just remember,

TILL DEATH DO US PART!

and a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU SWEET!
i pray that your hopes and dreams will come true some day.

with lots of love,
Ms Syazzy Lohan
EL Dept
Shitness High School

aka
sYAz :)

she's the fool

2008-11-03T18:30:00.000+08:00

listening to : lovebug - jonas brothers

salam all.

i know i've been super emo in my blog lately. all those rantings and all.
actually it was nothing! nothing at all!!!

it was just to spice up my act to be in trouble with BGR prob and all.
it was intended to make dayah believe i was in deep shit!
to lure her to her surprise party!

and it works!
lol.

and she was the biggest fool of the entire day!
oh dear...
loving shitness...

and dayah,
hope u enjoyed your day!

i'm sorry

2008-10-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

listening to : that's the way it is - celine

salam all.

couldn't sleep. in pain now.
heartaching.

i miss you hunney.

couldn't bear to keep this shit any longer.

i'm leaving.
taking a hike.

good bye now.

stop that

2008-10-28T14:15:00.000+08:00

listening to : that's when i love you - aslyn

salam all.

oh boy, you're daunting me each day,
wish you could stop that shit.
oh boy, you're scaring me life,
can you just stop that.
and oh boy, you're everywhere i go,
can you please just go.

arrrghhh... this is so frustrating.
you're in my dreams, in my reality.
how can i face all of them?

and i mean... ALL...
i need help.
badly.

shitness, with love

2008-10-24T12:39:00.000+08:00

listening to: lucky - jason mraz ft colbie

salam all.

it's been a while since i updated this lil paranoid journal of mine.
haha.
been away for some time.

missing my shitness dearest. read one of my lovelies' blog, touched my bottomest of my heart. hunney, do take care and i pray for the best for you to go through your end year assesments ya? *hugz*

on top of that,i've been having him in my dreams. a few times already.
sometimes the light seems a lil dark at the end, while at times it seems bright.
whatever that means,i just hope for the best. and you boy, take care ya,

and falling in love with this song. thanks hunney for introducing us this song as well as dedicating this to us.it's super lovely....

u're missed

2008-09-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

listening to : big girls don cry - fergie

salam all.

lovely,
i miss you.

please don't stray, please come back.

we're waiting nevertheless.

but waiting is never a pleasure.
it's torturing.
don't torture us any longer.

love,
Ms Syazzy Lohan
EL Dept
SHS.

when laughter turns to cries

2008-09-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

listening to : Torn - Natalie Imbruglia

salam all.

i'm very shagged and sleepy like a zombie, yet i can't sleep in peace.

i am not at all pleased with what i heard from one of my member. it hurts badly, though i wasn't the target.
i just hope that things are unintentionally spurred. and things can be glued back together again.

and i just hope that in each of your hearts there lovelies, lies a purest and the most IKHLAS heart that you ever have.
if you appreciate things, you guys wouldn't sweat the small stuffs.

see you tomorrow. with all smiles and better things up.

my new sex

2008-09-18T09:25:00.000+08:00

listening to : that's the way it is - celine dion

salam all.

Ahmad Ilhan Rizqullah was born yesterday! have yet to see the lil nephew. can't wait to put the tigger suit on him. the mummy was excited about it. not him! lol.

ok, that's not the topic for today. just can't get his bubbly face out of my head. heeee...

this is my new sex... down below... look...

yeah! shitness inc. photo scrapbook! keepsake! love love love.
wuuuhooo...

i'm back to high school

2008-09-17T05:43:00.000+08:00

listening to : labels or love - fergie

salam all.

yes... i'm going back to high school. this time round as staff. at a total new revamped school.
cool huh. met the staffs few days ago, and they are super nice people. we instantly clicked with each other. can't wait to work hand in hand with them.

what were you thinking? us giving back to our alma mater? lolx!

it's the weekend, i thought

2008-09-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

listening to: misteri jam 12 - KC @ Ria

salam all.

i met my shitness at 3pm to help dayah out with her assignments. we sat at the usual spot cutting away pictures for 2 hours. then the fun began.
we did photoshoot. posing here and there like nobody's business.

we broke fast at our favourite foodcourt, banquet.
farid hilton and hanis joined us for dinner. we proceeded to level 6 carpark and did lots more photoshoot.
we got tired after jumping around like mad people.

farid and hanis left the scene.
bought bubble tea and left for another session of chilling at the usual spot.
30 mins of chatting and crapping. some said they finished school at noon. i didn't realise that today was monday when i told dayah that she's not schooling tomorrow.
and they said, TOMORROW IS TUESDAY LAH.

ooops... i lost count of the DAYS already. and i thought today was sunday!

oh...it past midnight, so today IS tuesday.
still awake, and i'm in the a.m shift.

gotta go people.
nitey nites...

DAYAH! PICTURES PLEASE!!!!

it's a weird day!

2008-09-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

pay day & YOU

2008-09-12T13:21:00.003+08:00

listening to : you make my life hell - by me

salam all.

it's been 3 months. and not a single pay slip. they say wait. they say tomorrow, they say next week, then i say, just bury it together with me when i'm dead.

last month's digit was more. this month's digit got lesser... logic? no, i don't think so.
worst, some didn't get any. let's protest? no.... "work first, complain later"

Festive season is coming. WHO WANT TO APPLY LEAVE?
please note that they'll be balloting the leave.
all the malay officers started to rush to the counter and input their name.
and oh, they're not fasting throughout the month.

can you those evil selfish creep spare some thoughts for us, who wished to do the takbir on the eve, and syawal prayers in the morning?
and can you please do not tarnish the image of ramadhan by munching and chewing, at the same time acting like a hooligan at the restaurants.

and can you please spare some respect to the muslim officers to break fast for a little while?
NOT by saying "OH I NEED TO BREAK FAST!"

ok, i've enough.

sahur!sahur!

2008-09-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

listening to : good times, bad times - Edie Brickell

salam all.

after the course, i was separated from my happening girls. the 3 of them got to the same team, while i'm left in team alpha. it was sad till it made me broke down. we grew close within a month of hardship... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... BOOOORING.

i was in morning shift yesterday. my girls did OT in the nxt terminal - it was their 2nd off day today. i didn't know till shidah told me so.
decided to meet them after i standown.

as per normal we sat at our spot and randomly planned for a quick makan.
and the great news is, sir is joining us. hoooorah! got transport home!

and so we made our way to simpang bedok. a quick meal became a sahur session. thanks to sexy who mistakenly thought simpang bedok is bedok corner! the sexy rider lost her way. ekekeke.

(sYAz, nita, shidah, dilla sexy)

from 11pm we sat til 1am. it was fun lah. never been home tis late. but it was worth the sleepiness. really miss them. missed those moments where we chilled after course, especially with my nita.

and i just reached home.
wanna have a rest now.

dearest dayah, i will see how later if i can meet you, cos i'll be on night shift.

ukhwah

2008-09-08T20:59:00.000+08:00

listening to : if you come back - blue

salam all.

"SAHABAT,

Aku mencintai sahabatku dgn segenap
jiwaku.

Sahabat yg baik adalah seiring dgnku &
menjaga nama baikku ketika aku hidup &
selepas aku mati.

Hulurkan tangan kepada sahabatku utk
berkenalan krn aku akan merasa senang,
semakin ramai sahabat, semakin aku
percaya diri.

Aku selalu berharap mendapat sahabat
sejati yg tidak luntur baiknya dlm
suka & duka.

Jika aku dapat, aku ingin setia
padanya.." -imam shafie "

i caught a glimpse of you. those untold memories started to play in my head.
i forgot about what we bickered...

thoughts

2008-09-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

listening to: lucky - jason mraz ft colbie caillat

salam all.

at dayah's crib. with nani who's finishing up her assignments.
the owner? snoring away.

was having a good time with the shitness lately. great laughs.
we did some pondering in the train while on the way home.
it got me thinking again.
got me questioned again.

the confused paranoid is back.

haven't had a proper planning and schedule for myself eversince the previous job.
life haven't been on track - unlike i figured months ago.
haven't been serious.
haven't been a good to myself.

well, it's a high time to get myself back on the path which i should be.
the timing is perfect with the month of ramadhan.

hope to be back.

Restless

2008-09-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

listening to : headlines (friendship never ends) - spice girls.

salam all.

firstly, Ahlan Wa Sahlan, Ramadhan.
selamat menjalani ibadah puasa semua...

it's been a while since i last blog.
things are good and getting pretty settled in weeks to come.
alhamdullilah.

dearest companion ; e shitness inc. has never failed to cheer my most down moments.
eventhough after 12 hours of work, they managed to keep me awake through the love, fun, laughter, joy, sorrows, happiness and sadness.

though work is rather taxing,literally, i'm enjoying myself each and every moment i am at work.its pretty cool dealing with those international cultures of people. lol. they do drive me up the wall at times.

OM always say "DO FIRST, COMPLAIN LATER"

lol. i'm going out breaking fast with family dearest at JB~!
huraaah! since I won't be on 12 hr shift tomorrow, why not?!!

gtg now.
lots of pictures to update, will do soon,
as soon as i got the time... heh :)

selamat berbuka semua....

seasons in the sun

2008-08-16T16:45:00.000+08:00

listening to : always be my baby - david cook

salam all.

"WE HAD JOY, WE HAD FUN, WE HAD SEASONS IN THE SUN..."

of course we definitely did! oh my... it was random photography outing.
it was infact an unplanned meet.
oh yes, we're still in the island of singapore when we did those shoot.

oh, just take a look. we really had fun!

truly shitness

2008-08-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

listening to : forever - chris brown

salam all.

the graveyard shift really kill my social life. i miss my buddies aka shitness inc.
i had my 2 night shifts with having just 8 hours of sleep for the past two days, i almost returned home to sleep like a log.

my instinct told me that a few of the shitness are free today. contacted them and true enough, they're all at home. we met. just me, sopi n dayah.
we explored a part of our neighbourhood park. it was bloody cool spot for photography. kampung/jungle feel. we had a hell of a time snapping away.

missed them truly. met aisha for a while before we went photoshoot. after the photo session, we proceeded back to our usual hangout to meet 2 more adorable people.
barney & nadya.

i was actually forcing my body to be awake. but it was worth burning the sleeping time.
i'll be spending the rest of the whole day tomorrow at home. got to catch up on some sleep.
lol. haven't slept for 48 hours now. at the moment i can't seem to turn in for the night. hais...

the brain not functioning well now. so pardon me for my crappy entry.

hey guys, love today. love you all.
love you shitness~!

i just can't live without you interesting fellas.
each one of you is special with unique personality.
see you all soon k~!

long gone

2008-07-27T07:31:00.000+08:00

listening to : menadah gerimis - ziana zain

salam all.

it's been a while since i last blogged. do miss my multiply at times. but just couldn't find the opportunity to browse through.
i really missed my shitness and gangs!

got to meet up for a short while for sopi's surprise birthday party last week. it was bloody fun and exciting! guys, the videos will be up as soon as i got my 2 days off ok!

work is settling to be great so far. it is still too soon to tell. by far, i am enjoying myself in this new environment. loving my mates or should i say my girls. just a month and we know each other inside out. cool.

as we're getting closer, it is time to part. we didn't think it would be this early. so friday came and we got separated into teams. i am the only one left out to team alpha. while the girls got together in charlie. didn't feel the "stress" till i went for dinner with my SLPS girls when i was reminded of my lovely anita. made me cried as im missing her. aww...

just within a month. will be meeting my girls soon for a wedding event later this afternoon.
till then, take care people!

believe in karma

2008-07-02T15:49:00.000+08:00

listening to : leavin' - jesse mccartney

salam all.

learnt something very valuable today. though i've know it all these while, but today it has given me an impact which i can never forget.

it is easier to preach than to lead by example.

so there...cheerios everyone.

New experience

2008-06-20T11:23:00.000+08:00

listening to : warwick avenue - duffy

i'm loving something that taste and smells like rocket fuel - SALAMI!

gooday mate'~!
how you doin' in singapore?

i'm back at home now. still jet lag and mostly hibernating mode.
eversince i got back to homeland, i've been wanting to return to aussie~!
this is the very first time in my life after i return from a vacation i don't wanna go back home!

i miss those tranquility and friendliness culture of the australians.
you got to be there to understand me!

i'm returning!

home sick

2008-06-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

listening to : ikan di laut, asam di darat - adibah noor.

salam all.

i miss my bed. i miss my pillow.
i miss my blankie. i miss my nami.
i miss everything back home.

and it's only just a day!
gonna go through this for the next 8 days.

and despite of the yearnings and longings, we're having so much fun here.
uploading the day 1 photo. go have a look.

goodbye my friends, goodbye my lover...

2008-06-09T09:52:00.000+08:00

listening to : you and i both - jason mraz

salam all.

another hour to go.
yey...i have yet to overcome the paranoid me though.
pray for all our safety, dear families and friends.
will miss you all.

anything, can still reach me through the net or phone.
heh.

ok bye!
want anything?
wire me your cash!!!!
lol.

counting hours

2008-06-08T11:11:00.000+08:00

listening to : cry - rihanna

salam all.

exactly 24 hours from now, i'll be leaving singapore.
a part of me is very excited, the part of me being paranoid and worisome of
"oh how, what, why, how, how, how, how"

ummi has been telling me not to be too panicky and worried of unnecessary stress.
trying really hard to let things be and relax myself.
"you jog more and exercise more ok? it helps you release "feel good" hormones."

heh.

Sunday is here again. creeping slowly to pass by. rotting at home and bored to death.
spent my saturday lazing infront of syuzky and work on an impromptu banner design. Which has inspired me to change to the simplest layout, and oh well, renaming my site to a lesser of me.

I wanna catch a movie tomorrow.
Stuck between "What Happens In Vegas" and "Made of Honour" which ummi suggested watching last friday because I was feeling cranky.
shall decide there and then tomorrow before i go to the airport with the rest of the group.

yes. i'm watching alone, just like i watched Sex And The City.
It's fun going movies solo.
go figure.

confused paranoid

2008-06-08T00:20:00.006+08:00

Listening to : Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

Salam all.

Introducing the cOnfus~ed Paranoid Freak.
Simplicity is me? Hah... I just can't live without colours.
I'm loving my new template.

Need a lil bit more touch up.
Oh well, I'm not a pro in photoshop, this is the best that I can do.
I wonder how my site looks like on other pc/browser...

Leaving soon. Counting hours now.

Bon Voyage

2008-06-06T15:26:00.001+08:00

Listening to : Leavin' on a jet plane - Chantel kreviazuk

Salam all.

I don't know where I am. Aimlessly roaming around, found a spot and decided to connect back to the internet world. It's not that I've been away for so long. But this short period of time, within a week, there's so many I missed.
My mailbox is full, my multiply inbox is full too.

Bloghopping to buddies' and netizens'.
My girlfriend has left to KL with her family this morning.
I almost cracked my voice this morning when I spoke to her.
"Don't miss me ok?" she said.
And I go like, "How can I not be?"
"Oh maybe not too much ok?"
And I go on again, "I will miss you"
"AWWW... "

Yeah... Sound corny and lesbian. But it's just girls.
It's a girl's thing lah. Can't help it.
Wherever you are now, Be safe & have a happy trip aite.

A few others leaving for vacation too, Aisha & Nani going to KL.
You gals have fun k!

Ummi going for her "honeymoon" at Tioman for 3 days.

I'm in my most bluest mood ever.
This happens eveytime I want to travel.
Even if it means a 3 days 2 nights camp!

This time it affects me deeper cos I'll be away for about almost two weeks.
So yeah... Missing my few closed ones already, even before I'm actually physically away!
This is hard, but I do hope when I'm there I won't be home sick most of the time.

My flight will be in the late afternoon on Monday.
Budget Terminal.
Detailed infos, do give me a call aye?

Shitness Inc.

2008-06-01T09:35:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Lucky - Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat

Salam all.

A day to remember - 31st May '08.
Shitness Inc. had a get together slumber party @ Dayah's crib.
With all her family member not in, we had the whole house to ourselves. We even conquered the kitchen.
Oh ya, a special Thanks to Dayah's beloved Mummy for the whole big pot of Mee Soto. Didn't expect it because we planned to order pizza, oh well... That's why I want to be her "Daughter-In-Law"

As usual, we camwhored alot. Bummed around watched TV.Slacking around. Our President could not make it as she was busy collecting money for our organisation! HAHAHAHA.

Thanks to those who really made it a success, eventhough your presence were only for a short while due to other commitments. But hey, those short moments will leave a remarkable memories.

By dusk, only foursome left. We ordered 2-4-1 pizza and watched a heartfelt DVD. It was sooo sad of a story that it touched the bottomest of our hearts! It made us CRIED and SULK and ROLL ON THE FLOOR trying to control our emotions. If you guys watched Ayat-Ayat Cinta before, you'll know what I mean.
And I am not exaggerating when I said we cried, sulk and roll over.
Controlling the emotion to the SCRATCHED DVD that Dayah owned. It stopped halfway through, played it again, and stopped again, the sound goes "ak ak e e uk ak ak ak ak ek ee e" throughout the movie session.
It's supposed to be a 2 hour movie but became 3 hour story telling session~!

Lesson learnt: DONT WATCH DVDs AT DAYAH's HOUSE.

Lol. On the whole, it was a great gathering. Love it.

*Thanks Barney, for joining us :)*

Freaky Friday

2008-05-31T06:20:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Always be my baby - David Cook

Salam all.

When a good relationship is fostered because of openness and sincerity, the things we do can be alot more fun! Eventhough we don't go to cool places or the happening spots in town, the little and unplanned journeys and adventures we had made our bond grows stronger and a meaningful life ahead.

Initial plan was : "Just the three of us. The beach. Sit by the sea, talk, ponder ; heart-to-heart, just relax and enjoy the scenery" -suggested by 1.

OK SET! Me & the other 1 agreed.

Had a breakfast date with ummi dearest at 8am. We had buffet at delifrance. Started calling my Girlfie&Boyfie. Girl woke up on the 1st call. Thank You! The Boy? keep calling.
Done with Breakfast at 10am, still calling Boyfie.Lalalalala.... Hp died on him, home phone like thousands of times.

Gave up, chilled at Girlfie's crib aka Dayah.Aisha came over as well. Boy? Still sound asleep I guess. The girls camwhored. Finally the boy called at about 1.30pm. I left at 2pm to meet ummi at her former workplace to help her clear things.

Ummi's workplace-ummi's crib-the mall-lunch @ Swensens(STUDENT MEALS!!!!)-Met Mrs Daphne Chong, my highschool graduating teacher. She is still as lovely and sweet like before. I asked if her her new environment is good, and i'm sure her students now are much nicer than us and her reply was " No. *shakes head* You guys are still the sweeter bunch* Awwww.... She was dining @ Swensen too, rushing to catch a flight to Aussie @ 1230am with her family. See you in Melbourne, cher -Walked around to digest-NTUC for grocery shopping-Separate ways.

The friends were internet surfing when I came over. They were practically slacking. We camwhored. We modelled.We climbed the hill!

Uphill and downhill. Walked all the way to the mall and got ourselves a bubble tea - on sopi's account! hahaha. Walked back to dayah's crib.
Back home.

Didn't jog, but the hill-xercise was great guys! It's just as equivalent to my jog!

So the BEACH outing? Naaaah... It's the HILL outing. Night walk was great!

Peacful Soul

2008-05-27T19:17:00.000+08:00

" Ukhwah itu indah apabila dasarnya kerana Allah.
Dan cintalah Allah dengan sebenar-benarnya cinta
kerana Dialah sebaik-baik teman,
Buat ku, dan buat mu "

I am at eased. Very peaceful today. Went for night's jog over at the expressway flyover.
The atmosphere was so serene that I couldn't care less for whatever had happened.
I know if I rub it in, it will get worst.

So, Hasbunnallah wa ni'mal wakil - Cukuplah Allah sebagai penolong kami.

The Perfect News

2008-05-26T19:37:00.000+08:00

Listening to : I'm Alive - Celine Dion

Salam all.

It was our crucial moments in life at this point, especially when there is no confirmation on any bodies for job vacancies. Eventhough my chance is 95%, they have yet to call me for 2nd meet up.
As for her, none has called to give positive feedbacks.

As I walked around the mall killing time, I received a call from a familiar number. Thinking that it might be from the previous workplace, I actually hang up. LOL~!
It striked me suddenly that it's not! It is the call that I've been anxiously waiting for...
So yeah, the words from her mouth was suuuwwweeeetttt...

"Congratulations Ms Syazni. You will start your employment with us @ so and so date. Please come down to our headquaters to sign your documentations tomorrow @ 9am"

YAHOOO~!!!

I didn't break the news to anyone just yet. Especially to ummi, as she was in her worst mood of worrisome. In the evening she called up to meet her @ the North. While waiting for her, I received another call from her, sounded chirpy,

"Hi. Where are you? I'm here... I just got a call. I got a job!!! Alhamdullilah..."

Double Joy!

Gave her a huge big warm hug & we "celebrated" our "end-of-worry" day.
LOL.

Dedication for YOU.

2008-05-25T14:29:00.001+08:00

Listening to : Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion

"You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me"

I was watching Ellen Degeneres Show earlier this afternoon when she featured Celine Dion as her special appearance guest for the show. Celine was singing to the song above. I felt for the song so much so that it made me teared.

Having spent days with you eversince has made our bond grows stronger. I love the way you comforted me during my rough periods. I can never thank you enough for those wonderful times we've shared.
Little tiny gestures made us feel loved by each other. I couldn't be selfish and ask you for me, coz for whatever you've done for me, it is more than just the ordinary.

YOU ARE DEFINITELY SIGNIFICANT IN MY LIFE.

Without you, I don't know if I could hurdle the ordeal.
I manage because
"You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you"

Should I say more? :)

YOU... you know who you are, because you loved me *464*

Definitely ill

2008-05-23T16:56:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Menanti Pasti - Siti Nurhaliza

Salam all.

There is no doubt that I had a fabulous day with my love one & a happening night with my shitness. It was a whole day of love & laughter. If there is one day that I can call it my best day - it would have been yesterday.

Reached home with aching and throbbing headache. I felt so weak that I slept almost immediately after my refreshing shower. With my locked door, the lights are still on, Mum gave me a sudden knock to switch off the lights and all. She then went off to bed. I woke up feeling sick in the tummy. Oh what's wrong...?
Rushed to the toilet and start throwing up. I thought I would have felt better soon after, hell no!
It got worst. All the undigested food was out... ewww... I know.

One time, two times and third time.... Weak.
Slumped on the sofa. Rested 5 minutes and ran to the maroon toilet bowl and all I could taste was just the bitterness of acids.
Fifth time. Flushed and off to bed.

Grabbed an ointment over the bed side table and rubbed on tummy dearest. The tight band around the stomach lining felt so uncomfortable. Istighfar & Selawat. Lay down & sleep on my side.

I was thinking,
"If this night prolonged like this, I'm gonna wake dad up & send me to the nearest 24 hr clinic." Time check : 1.15 am

3 Minutes I shut my eyes, I saw her image. Puke was already in my mouth. Bitter.
I hunched over my bed to get up and vomitted uncontrollably onto my floor. "TUUUP"
The fan stopped spinning, the tv goes off.
"Oh no..."

Burped... The wind tasted of musty bitterness.
Grabbed my torchlight. Saw a figure on the sofa in the living room trying to reach the main switch...
"Did you plugged anything that caused this short circuit???"

"aaah... no... I puked on my extension wires"

The lights are back on. I saw a puddle of yellowish liquid surrounding my plugs.
Mum panicked.

"What happened???"

Rushed to the washroom again to puke for the seventh time. Uncontrollable. Couldn't even hold back not to throw up.
Mum had to clean up my mess. Dad gave me the water that he "Syiffa'".
Drank, wiped it over on my tummy dearest.
Felt better soon after. Though the stomach still feels acidic and uncomfortable, I managed to get some sleep till about 10am.

Saw the doctor and spent 31 bucks on a good GP.
He concluded that I might have food poisoning or gastricitis.
My stomach still feels uncomfortable. The acid still lingers around the whole stretch of the stomach lining...

Burp... The wind tasted of musty bitterness.
Oh... need to find the restroom!

Brunch

2008-05-22T07:58:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Samudera - Nora

Salam all.

"Build more windows and fewer walls"

I've been complaining that I'm deprieved of sleep lately. Last night I was so devastated that I slept right after my previous post. It was about 1 am. I had my uninterrupted & deep sleep.

The important thing I was supposed to do, I didn't. That was to set alarm to wake up early. Thus the reason of oversleeping.
Two things I missed today : Wee hours jog & breakfast with the duo.

My lovely bro sopi smsed to say he just woke up and so to meet for brunch. Now it's almost LUNCH. Lawl. Will still meet him later on.

The other FUTURE SIS IN LAW of mine... Uh huh.. SIS IN LAW...
She is still in bed, sleeping like a rock. I don't know how many missed calls I've given her just for today... No wonder Sopi similarised her with Little Miss Piggy.
"Kak... PLEASE WAKE UP!" *I'm dead if she reads this* harharhar.

Mood swings

2008-05-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Hands on me - Vanessa Carlton

Salam all.

At times the jovial mood just instantly switched it's mode to PMS mood.
I wonder why is it automatically without warning to myself even.
I had a very bad hair day today, more of bad haircut day.
It was supposed to be just trimmed, but shooot...
It just so happened that...ah just let say, I don't like the way it looked like.
SOOOO... it was shorter than usual.
Argh... I sooo miss my long crop!

It affected me I guess that I didn't feel that good throughout the rest of the day.
Besides the fact that I lack sleep these few days.
Maybe the colour red ivites bad vibes to me as compared to the green previously.
Ummi said I might have anger in me. Ah... true. I think. More or less, I can just spark without warning.

I pity my bros. My target "audience". lol.
Most of the time it would be just me in isolation.
Now now... that's not good.

I really need the sleep, but I just can't put myself to bed.
Can somebody sing me a lullaby? :p

Philosophy...

2008-05-21T20:44:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Me & Mr Jones - Amy Winehouse.

Salam all.

The ART of Human Love : CULTIVATE TRANSPARENCY.

You see me through the heart,
Deep within you understood without me saying,
Words are just a form of expression,
Actions speaks louder than the expression itself.

Our openness helped us see,
See what is in our hearts,
Without considering the hurt,
Cause truth does hurt.

With the transparency,
You took the hurt gracefully,
In hope of a closer kin,
We became even more bonded.

The art of transparency is "beyond my call of duty"

Thank You, for being my transparency...

They asked.

2008-05-21T20:30:00.001+08:00

Listening to : Kekasih gelapku - Ungu

Salam all.

And when they ask me : " Is there anybody/someone you can tell everything to, or almost everything?"

And I can safely answer : "A definite YES. I never would have gone through life as it is now without her. The best part is she's much older than me. But we tell each other our darkest kept secrets. She's my confidante. My worst critic ever. My fashion statement. My life-companion,my god mum."

And of course... MY SHITNESS INC, they are my greatest WORST CRITICS & my greatest confidante goes to none other than my bimbo partners ;) *winks*

Pig u. LAWL~!!!

Happy Holidays

2008-05-19T12:56:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Nine in the afternoon - Panic @ the disco

Salam all.

In the mood to blog.
Updates on the room : COOL bebeh.But wait! Final touch ups need to be done.
Sucks @ painting the corners & cornis. eww...My bro made it look uglier... aiyah...

Anyhoots, HOME ALONE today! YAHOO!
I got myself my Vanilla Milk Tea from sweet talk, bro's treat. heh.
Still hunting for the BERUANG KETURUNAN GRAHAMS aka Bears from the Grahams generations Family name : Honey. lol~

It's good to know that I'm feeling chirpy & lively each day. Alhamdullilah.
Thanks to dad's precious words which I didn't take much consideration way back then.

"Takde satu benda yang kekal dlm dunia ni kak..."

Mungkin satu tika dahulu aku cuma ambil sambil lewa dengan kata2 itu, (tatkala aku sedang mengamuk dengan adik aku sebab PSP kesayangan aku tercalar dek keganasan remaja lelaki.)
Meningkatnya usia dan pengalaman hidup yang tidak seberapa ini telah membuat aku betul2 faham dengan kata2 itu dan tentunya Ilahi Rabbi yang akan kekal selama2nya.

Yang hidup pasti mati, yang datang pasti pergi, yang cantik pasti buruk kerepot jua,
Yang awal pastinya ada akhir. Setiap permulaan pasti ada penghabisan...
Apakah kesudahan cerita kita? Hanya DIA yang Maha Mengetahui...

Eh... maklumlahkan, VESAK DAY mah...Dah sembahyang blom para penganut semua?
Yang bukan penganut tu, Selamat Bercuti ye....

Childhood memories

2008-05-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Take A Bow - Leona Lewis

Salam all.

I'm craving for

Uh huh... My childhood favourite snack. I enjoy munching the Honey flavoured bears... uuuuoooohhh... Yummy.... Now now... where should I find my favourite Teddy Grahams?
Cold storage, do you still sell these cookies? ekekeke.

The 1st thing in the morning, gonna hunt for this yummy snack & of course my new obsession - Vanilla Milk Tea.
Eh thanks eh Dayah. ish...

Kekata HIKMAH Ninda

2008-05-17T19:51:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Kasihnya Balqis - Aishah

Salam all.

Finally I had my longest sleep last night. Woke up pretty late. Even so, it wasn't a quality rest. Went visiting granny and didn't do a single thing @ home. ARGH~! My first part of the day is wasted! eeek...

Ninda saw my huge panda eyes. So the 1 million dollar question was asked. Bluergh...
Never sleep lah nek~ I painting my room lah nek~
That is all I said and she goes :-

Ingat ye tuan-tuan dan puan-puan.... ini dia yang Ninda ku pesan... hit me so hard...TERSENTAK aku...

"Saling doa mendoakan, tak kira baik atau jahat orang tu. Biar jahat mana manusia, doakan yang baik. Ingat-ingatlah sejarah Rasullulah dan adab beliau."

Seperti Orix kata..."FUHYO FUHYO"

"Ok nek."

Apa yang aku dah cakap dengan dia eh? erk....? tarak link lah granny... Tapi mampu pukul up down front back left right...

Blues...

2008-05-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Berserah - Hady Version

Salam all.

My heart kept breaking no matter how lovely they tried to console me. But I do feel relieved when I let it out bit by bit. Trying to get by and find some closure. InsyaAllah I can do this. I know I can. Like Kak Pinkie said - Jodoh itu Rahsia Allah... ;)) Mungkin juga ditakdirkan sebegini kisahnya.

My appointment was truly a successful one. I just can't wait to get down to business. Gonna love my next big thing! Something which I has always looked foward for. Yahoo!

And the dreams we shared, maybe when we're reaching 30s? Yes dearest? *chuckles*
It can be sooner if God's will. heee...Finishing my room project pretty soon. Haven't had my sleep for 2 days already now. It will worth the midnight oil... Yes! It's some sort of my training for the future. ekekeke....

Gotta get back to painting! tata~!!!

Ke mana hilangnya pelita

2008-05-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Take a bow - Madonna

Dunia ini adalah pentas yang terluas. Bukan sandiwara, bukan juga drama sinetron.
Ia juga bukan lakaran atau lukisan yang bisa dipadamkan. Jika ia bisa, ia akan meninggalkan secebis kenangan pahit dan manis.
Dengan kenangan itu juga ia mampu membuat seseorang itu menangis atau tersenyum.
Sesuatu yang indah itu mungkin juga akan merubah menjadi sesuatu yg kurang senang.

Sama ada seseorang itu mampu menghadapi kenyataan hidup ini atau tidak, terpulang pada individu yang punyai pentas tersendiri. Aku redha dengan apa yang telah terlakar buat ku. Sesuatu tindakan yang bernas buat diriku mungkin tidak dapat dipersetujui oleh individu yang lain secara umumnya.
Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. Setiap manusia telah dijadikan dengan hati yang berlainan. Jangan pernah engkau meragui ketulusan hati ini. Jangan pernah engkau menyoalkan keikhlasan hati ku. Kerana engkau tidak pernah ambil tahu tentang hal yang kecil yang sepatutnya engkau hargai.

Just a note : Don't take little & silly things for granted, for that one day, it will make life more meaningful if you appreciate those tiny gestures.

They say, no point grieving. For unappreciated love. Whatever kind it is.

Uhibbuki...Longing...

2008-05-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Farshi Turab - Akhill Hayy

Salam all.

I was taken aback suddenly when I wanted to type a happy post here.
Getting way tooo emo and breaking down bad, my lovely girlfie said don't be too soft hearted.
Ummi once said something like that too... I'm trying not to be. Tapi itu lah zahirnya.

My heart breaks so badly now... Not that I am not happy or pleased with the company that I am having now. It's something I SHOULD be expecting, but I chose to ignore it and take for granted that things will just be as fine. Appearantly not. What saddens me most is that it was so quick that things happen without warning.

Tak pernah aku sangka kesudahan nya sebegini. Allah benar-benar menguji ketulusan hati ini. Soheeb ku tidak memahami mengapa aku sungguh pilu tat kala mendapat tahu berita itu. Mungkin kerana aku terlalu ikhlas dalam perkara ini.

Ya Allah...
Tabahkanlah hati ini dalam mengharungi liku-liku hidup ini...

Semoga Allah memberkati hidupmu wahai teman.
Aku sentiasa tulus mendoakan kebaikan mu, insyaAllah, amin.

Under Construction

2008-05-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Tilt your head back - Nelly&Christina Aguilera

Salam all.

I've never been better these few days. Thanks to the company of friends & beloved ummi, for sharing highs & lows of life :)

Being with the friends has inpired me to revamp my room. Decided to repaint & rearrange my room. Right now it's still under construction. haha. My house looks like some "Karang Guni" house. Will have to get everything ready before Friday... hurhurhur...

Anyhoots, this coming Thursday...Which is 2moro, got an appointment to attend to. I can't wait for the meet. Just hope for the best out of the meet. May Allah approve whatever that will be discussed on later. Amin...

Till then, my body is aching... tired and sleepy now.
Stay away from controversies. LOL!

Tangisan dalam ketawa

2008-05-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Everything - Micheal buble

Salam all.

I just came back. I had fun today, and yet I just feel like breaking down all of a sudden. Ummi knows why. Sad,upset,vulnerable and sensitive. But it's nothing to worry about. Period.

I totally had fun with 2 sets of people today. Actually 3. Thanks to the siblings of JULs. It was a nice catch up.

I met up with ummi late afternoon, she needed to de-stress. And we had lots of fun. Everyone who ask, what's our relationship : She's my mother. My sister. My girlfirend. My worst critic. Whatever you can think of. Lol.

Dayah is working today. Sopi on a week MC. Pity him. He got total swollen right foot, but has a big heart to WALK. Went starbucks and had my Chai Tea Frap. FREE. Woohoo...
Got to know Dayah's colleague Man. Very funny guy. Stayed in Admiralty too. Kekek ah brader...Right from the food court till the train on the journey back home. Laugh non stop.

Didn't I tell you that I had fun?
On the inside, there's a huge lump in my throat, anytime can burst in tears....
Period.

Wedding

2008-05-04T14:21:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Believe - Cher

Salam all.

Guess where I am now? Bumming @ Dayah's crib.

I went to Mir's wedding and saw lots of primary school friends.

I was touched that they actually remember me.

Seriously, I haven't met them for ages sey.

Some of us were like...

"errr..remember me? ah ya.. but I forgot your name. heee"

Gosh.. same here lah. Sabariah lah, Herni lah, Fifi lah. Herni even wedded Rizman who was a primary school classmate of mine. Me & Farah saw lots lah. It was fun lah.

We didn't eat, there were sooo many peeps sey!

So after we hung around see the Kuda Kepang performances I realised that the block to the right was dayah's! So I text her and she said that Aisha is coming over.

Decided to jus peek a boo them for a while with Farah.

In the end, Farah left first.

Ekeke... We're going out for a while now.

Wanna get some ideas for mother's day gifts.

Daaaa~

Satay & Kain

2008-05-04T00:12:00.001+08:00

Listening to : Hijau - Zainal Abidin

Salam all.

I woke up to the sound of my bros opening the wardrobe looking for clothes.
"KAK!!! NAK IKUT TAK? PEGI JOHOR???!!!"
It felt sooo good to be in my cosy bed that I actually doze off soon after that.It wasn't even 0800hrs yet!
Then came another voice @ 0830hrs asking the same question, I think it was my aunt. Lol. Could't even figure who it was!Still in my sleep I ask who is going? What for? What time? Go where? lol.
All questions were answered & I said no, and go back to sleep.

At 0915hrs,the same voice asking,
"Kak, nak tukar duit tak? abah nak kluar tu tukar duit"
I just shake head.
"tak nak pegi ke tak nak tukar duit?"
I said: DUA-DUA LAH. and zzzzz....lol~!

1000hrs they are still @ home. I saw my bros still in their t-shirts and shorts. I assumed that they are not following. So I decided to stay home & cook pasta. So when I asked my bro what sauce to go along with, they say,
"I'm going JB lah"
Panic, I asked, BOTH OF YOU?
Uh-huh.

Macam lipas kudung aku pi siap2 nak ikut.
And so...Fetch my lovebirds uncle&aunt @ CCK off to JB via 2nd Link. It was a smooth journey. No jams. Alhamdullilah.

1st stop was Osman Restaurant. I don't know why they like to go there. Had a fullfilling generous meal of fried beehoon. Superb! I was really full throughout the day! Really no kidding.

Next stop was to find Char Kuey. They practically borong the Char Kuey! I think there's about 100 pieces in total. Goodness... Simpan semiggu katanya.

Next stop was Bandar Baru Uda to get the favourite Putu Bambu. Excellent. I shouted i want 3 boxes, my bro shotued 2. That makes 5 in total. LOL. So There's about 15 boxes I guess? Of course it's not for us alone. Gave a few boxes to our relatives in SG.

Next was Giant Plentong. At Giant Hypermarket, we didn't shop that much. The main purpose was NAGOYA. The makciks favourite place to get Kain Mentah. Initially I'm not so interested lah. Then as I go around, I found one material that I like. And then another, and another. Lol. In the end mum bought me two materials & I got 1 for my dearest granny.
The makciks (my mum included) mata rambang. If they can, they'll get the whole store!We spent the most time in there! It was almost 1830hrs. The guys from McDonalds came back and they are still choosing the materials!

Next was Angsana. Singgah jap untuk Solat Maghrib. Dah singgah tu, jalan2 lah sekejap. Sempat beli CD Zainal Abidin & Salamun Salam Koleksi Nasyid Hits 1428H.Dah tu TERmasuk dalam satu kedai namanya "Gulati" (Is that how you spell it?)Mata ku jadi rambang dan gilerrrr the moment I lay eyes on those silks! The price tags showed 4 mtr @ RM200+!!! But everything there was super lovely.
Thank goodness my aunt say, "eh kira ok ape harga dia. SILK tau. mana boleh dpt in Singapore" ekekeke.
So now one of the kain is in my head. Oh my... gonna get that!!!! Don't care!!!

Next was WAK RADOL!!! Ok, This Wak Radol is just like a typical kedai kopi tepi jalan, but it has stole the heart of the Sultan Johor for their happening satay! Thanks to our cousin Efa who intro it to us. Thanks to Wak Radol, everywhere else's satay taste no good to us! wakakaka. Not only that, other dishes taste just as good! Kalau tak sedap, tak kan lah Sultan sanggup nak satay dorang kan.....
Dengan semangat yg berkobar2 ni nak satay, sesampai je di korner lampu isyarat, EH WAK RADOL TUTUP LAH! Adeh....Hampa!

Next was 2nd link R&R. Since Wak Radol is close, we decide to just eat @ 2nd link's R&R lah. So dad ordered 40pieces satay. It tasted good, but masya'Allah, keras mcm batu!
Eh thank eh Wak Radol... because of you, satay2 org lain rasanya cam tak sedap! LOL~!It's a compliment to Wak Radol kay! For the rest yg berniaga satay, minta ampun, minta mahap banyak2 ye.

Next stop, It's our final destination.... HOME!

That's my Saturday.
Tomorrow gotta go for a Wedding Reception. A primary school friend's getting married!Congrats Mir!

TGIF

2008-05-03T05:49:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Yesterday - Beatles

Salam all.

Yesterday..... ok Beatles? lol. Thanks to ummi who kept telling me to go youtubing them.
(Oh because we saw cool t-shirts from Beatles in Metro. We keep going just to see,but never buy...oh dear... it cost abt $60+ for jus a tshirt. but it's coooool....)
So I go: Oh bladi Oh blada life goes on braaaah...ohhhh life goes on.

So yesterday :

Accompanied dear Juli to Cecil Street. Back to hometown. Had lunch. Barney came over. Chitty Chatty. Separate ways. Sembawang - ummi. Hometown. Had ice-cream break @ swensen. walk around.Shop for facial cleanser @ Clinique. Yey! She got Clinique as Mom's day pressie. Cafe Galilee for cheesecake!. T-shirt surfing on ebay.Coool!. NTUC for groceries. Ummi went back. I Paid some bills.boohoo... Went OCBC for some banking. MET FARAH! yippie!. Went courts settle some bills. Went Cafe Galilee again to meet Farah's fren. NEW FRIEND FOUND - Ayu. Funny great friendly gal. In the lib, goooogaagaa hahah heehe.
Chatted as though we know each other for so long! gosh. haha. Tired. Back home.

Today is totally fun. Unplanned and we met. and I love you! all

Layouts Make Over

2008-05-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

Listening to: Flaws & All - CT Version on Youtube. Go google...

Salam all.

Oh, 5 minutes to midnight and HAPPY LABOUR DAY to all colleagues, ex colleagues, families & friends. Hope you guys had a splendid holiday, indeed well deserved.

My holiday is erm... spent quite well i guess.
Spending the whole day with sYUzky the lappie doing some make over for the layout.
I know I changed the multiply layout quite a no. of time. Just not satisfied with it. Finally today, I took the time and effort to really satisfy myself. lol.

And finally my Blogspot Blog skin is revamped! Now with updated links and all. lol.
Nope...I won't close that account as I got tonnes of memories in it. So now, any updates from multiply, will be cross-post to blogger as well.

Loving both skins.

Layouts make over. online movies. youtube. online tv. chatting. bloghopping. websurfing. googlings. online diner dash. watch some news. ate a special dish my aunt cook so many times, just can't get enough.watch some tv. played with Nami the cat. net surfing. youtubing. emailing. online diner dash. now last blog entry for the day.

Good night for now.

Needing

2008-04-30T05:43:00.000+08:00

Sometimes what you WANT is not what you really NEED.
What is NEEDED is more worthwhile than what is WANTED.

I see SunShine...

2008-04-29T20:04:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Home - Chris Daughtry

Salam all.

Today is like the best day of my life (since the freedom) lol.
All these while for the past 4 months or so, I haven't got the chance to meet that somebody/something.
And today, I found everything all together on the same day.

I really managed to do something I really miss doing back during school days.
-Got to watch a movie. ALONE. wuuuhooo~!!!
-Bumped onto long time no see friends. Yahoo...I got them back!
-GST Package aka ERS came earlier than I thought. There's $$ for Labour Day!
-I saw and hi hi bye bye my MOST favourite teacher in Sec Sch. She was in my thoughts few days ago!
-Been grinning, smiling & laughing throughout the day! I'm a happy Syazni.

So what is it that I've found? - MY LIFE!!! My happening life.

So everything just got better... I told ya, It's getting better today.
And tomorrow.......

More things awaits to happen!
But 1st, I got important date in the morning. *chuckles*.
It will make my pockets full I tell ya.

Still grinningz till now.
Couldn't forget that smile

Instincts...

2008-04-28T17:27:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Menanti Pasti - CT

Salam all.

Just after I blogged on the previous entry, I received a phone call.
It show's the no. of my lovely beruang Antartica Missy Tony.
So excited I answered, "Hello darliiiiing!!!!"

Then comes this husky voice says "Hello"
Alamak salah darling lah... It was Alfie Sopi!
(Don't ask me, I've yet to ask him why Alfie. Long time no meet, last was Raya)

LOL. I was so great to hear from them. Planning some Shitness Inc outings real soon. Hope plan works. Just need confirmation from our to Nurses of they could spare some time off.They asked if I could meet up with them @ 6pm @ Orchard to go Karockz, but I couldn't join in the fun lah guys. So sorry 'bout that. Maybe next time ya?

My 1st instinct this morning was to tag them up and respond to their friendster messages, then blog about it. And ya, soon enough, they called!

Well, the second instinct wasn't mine.
Ummi wanted to go for hair cut, so I brought her to my hairdresser. And as we chatted with my hairdresser, she mentioned she saw me somewhere in between YCK & AMK one of those days. I stated my reason. How cool was it that her client overheard our yackings and ask if I'm looking for jobs. Oh yes, definetely lady...

I got an offer to send over my resume. ekekeke. Yeeehaaa!

Of course my Ummi's new hairdo is superb. My hairstylist never fails to satisfy me & those I introduced to. hehehe.

Sooo.... today is just great. It's getting better tomorrow.

And Singaporeans... Wednesday is alot better for us. GRINS

I'm officially a B-U-M-M-E-R

2008-04-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

Tuning into : Lollipop - Mika

Salam all.

It has been a week since i bumped around hometown.
I'm officially out of hell/prison. Aaah... what a relieved!

Life has never been this daunting as it is.
It keeps coming back for more. Scaring me more often than Not.
Geez... Gimme more break puuuhlease!

I may or may not have made the greatest impact decision of my life right now,
but at least, I'm more than happy to just be as free as a bird now.
Though at times I do regret for that hasty decision, but hey like i said,
IT'S WORTH IT MAN.
The mental torture is off now.

Just hoping for the best in times to come. Do hope something comes up soon enough to save me from the "difficulties" that I'm facing. Darn...~!
Nobody knows what it is. Just have to kept mum til the time really permits to yell!

Holla... I miss my shitness. They are somewhere out there.
Busy with their projects and nursing career. Lol.
If anyone of you who are reading this, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE get back to me.
We've been planning for another picnic and nothing works so far. Now that the MAMAT MAS Selamat is on the loose, our police man pun susah banget nak contact. Hey bro. u changed your no. or what?

Oh well, till then, I shall wait till somebody come by and save me from this "flying around too freely" I need to be caged with commitments at times ok...
I'm deprieved of it. lol.

Peace out ya'all

Sweeties, with love, miss u a loads.

2008-04-23T13:11:00.000+08:00

My heart goes to you & you.
It may seem I'm taking things gracefully, but like you & you, it hurts too.
I'm sorry for being ignorant to your feelings, never meant it to be this way. Never meant every little things I did wrong.

I'm saying this : I've changed.
Am not gonna say like people always say, "No, I'm still the same old me, No change"
Cause that's bullshitting,

I say. "Well.....People change..."

For the better or worst, I still care.
Dear Almighty, show us the light to the truth....

REALIZE....Colbie. For us all.

V1: take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

C: if you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

V2: take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

C: if you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

V3: it's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

C: if you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

Ooooooo

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
Realize, realize