Tuesday, April 24, 2007
When eh?
Listening to: Kasihnya Laila - Jinbara
Salam all.
Awat ni dok pot-pet-pot-pet ni? Cheq hapdate lah ni. hesh.
Sebenaqnya, cheq dok amik LEAVE minggu lepas, 3 hari you~!
Weds, Thurs, Fri, Sat, Sun. Happie nah?~! Cheq tak pi mana.
Weds pi JB & visit adik sdara cheq sok hospital kat KKH.
Lah tu pi jumpa ummi.
Thurs pagi pi teman makcik cheq pi pasaq Geylang, petang pi menyinggah hospital lagik.
Fri petang sampai malam pi jumpe ummi lagik.
Sat tu, lepas zuhor cheq pi Geylang lagi nah. Pi Joo Chiat sama kak sdara dan makcik2 sekalian.
Hari Sun lagik bagus.
Semua hari2 tu aku tidok kul 2-3 pagi. Hari Ahad tu dah penat sangat gaknya, dah tu tengah "PMSy". Nak tau aku bangun kul bape? Almost to 12Noon. UISH! BUROK!!!
Dah tu, pi mandi. Dah mandi, dok sambung dok atas katil, tenung ni laptop sampai lah ke mlm.
Aku tak berganjak pun untuk makan. Apa angin ntah aku ni. Pi toilet intervals je.
Mak aku pi keje pun die masuk bilik nak beritahu yang die nak pi. Aku dok ANGGUK ajo!
"Oi. org nak pegi kejelah, salam sini". LOL~ Die yang datang pat aku suro salam. Ish~!
In the end, aku tido pun aku leave the lappy on. Agak2 kul 11.30pm aru aku tidoq~!
Semalam pi keje punyalah LIAT!!!! Tapi aku tak menyesal pi ON LEAVE!
Ah ni, WHEN EH. Aku rasa si nadh pernah luahkan perasaan die abt ROUTINED job.
Hah...kali ni, aku pulak ye.
Ever got tired of doing something so routined, so scheduled,so monotonous?
It always felt sucky to know you're stuck in something, and unable to move foward.
Yes, It's an experienced gain, but for how long must someone do the same thing, so routined.
Go in do the things you're supposed to do. Go out feeling very lethargic. The next day, go in again, see the same things, same spot, same job. Punched out, mentally exhausted. To some the job may seem very easy. But for someone who got no interest of what they're doing, no matter how easy, it'll be mentally torturing to do the same things everyday.
It's very tiring to convinced myself every morning, that things will be great sooner or later.
I have to find an excuse to make myself to go work. Like ummi said, it's mentally frustrating. Fighting with so many things to handle. Things won't work out, if I just say it. I think it's time for me to act on something. But I don't know if the action will hurt the people I work with, espcially that particular someone.
But if I keep thinking of people, till when will I ever move foward? right?
Yes. Hah.
It's not that I'm complaining or something. But if you know my real situation, you'll understand.
I asked a few people, they gave me an idea of moving already. The more I ask around, the more I want to set sail sooooooooooooooon. But I know, I can't do it now. But it won't take too long.
Yes, I'm GREATLY very thankful of the current Job I have. It's nice to know that I have a Permanent job, I have my own salary to feed on myself. And of course, the experienced gained. The things I never knew, I learnt a few things. That's great.
But when your heart's not in it, it doesn't do any good to yourself and no justice is done to your company.
I'm just satisfying you. What you wished for... You got it.
cOnfus~ED Paranoia Freak @ 11:07:00 PM ||
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