Wednesday, February 25, 2004
itS lesS tHan 2 dayS!
*beep*grrr* there goes my handphone vibrating.
the number is not listed in my phonebook.
it read " hi kak! result lagik 2 days. amcm? mdm endang takder tau nak tgk kakak amik result. gentar ke kak?"
eh, sape pulak yg panggil aku kakak ni? adik mane plak yg aku amik ni?
ku pun reply lah tanye sapo tu yg msg.
lah, plak nye si oskanira tu... satu2 nye adik angkat pat sch dulu. the only junior in sec 2 tt i used to get along. the rest tu plak step kakak plak. kalah kiter org.
oklah, so told her that gentar tu tetaplah ku gentar. the feeling repeats like i was in sec 4 nak amik N level result. hey, it is equally important tau. w/o N level tak kan ku berada di sini menunggu O level result...
lagi2 mase tu ngah jln raya wen i heard the news...issssh...ngah happy2 kan, pastu tau plak result in 2 days time.hehehe.
tapi, segala yg telah tertulis, sudah pun disemak. keputusan sudah pun diberi. ia tercatat di sehelai kertas, dan kertas itu bukan sembarang kertas. kertas yang akan ku bawa kesana dan kesini untuk ku melanjutkan pelajaran,insyaAllah.
lulus atau sebaliknya, hanya satu yg ku dpt lakukan, ku redha dgn keputusan yg telah tercatat.
i pray that i wud jump for joy, n instantly call my parents n ummi, happily laughing n sheding happy tears telling them that i made it - just like i did in decembr 2002.
ku berdoa pada MU ya ILAHI, kurniakanlah kegembiraan yg serupa, jika tidak lebih. kalau bukan di takdirkan ku gembira, tabahkanlah hati dan jiwaku menghadapi apa jua keputusan yang Engkau berikan.Tunjuk kanlah ku jalan yang harus ku pilih selepas itu....
looking at my N level result slip...i felt proud - even tho the result wasnt as marvellous or magnificient...i was just a 9 pointer...but i really made it.i proved some1 or two wrong.i did it.i was so happy and excited that i passed. for once, i saw my eyes flickering n dancing with joys. it was n still not easy to see that in me. the-usually-solemn girl was actually smiling wif happiness.
never in my life i was proud of myself.ya, even tho there's many who said, i cudnt make it cos im a 9 pointer...but it beats me...i don care. with N level cert i cud go ITE oso if i want.so wat if i go ITE? so wat? its still an education. how many Uni grads here are left without work? how many ITE grads here are earning as much? it doesnt matter where i go, as long as i upgrade my skills.
now, i m waiting for friday. meanwhile, i let things be n the result will bring me to somewhere eventually...
all the best to you guys out there!
cOnfus~ED Paranoia Freak @ 10:22:00 PM ||
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