Wednesday, November 05, 2003
WALKING THROUGH THE MEMORY LANE
In rememberance of 2nd Nov 2001
The day i met you the 1st but 2nd time, i was on the edge.
jittery,fidgeting all day - waiting for 5.30 pm to come.
many thoughts went through my mind; how will u react upon seeing me AGAIN - after a very long time since last met. will you accept me again - as who i am n not the past me?
all those kept lingering in mind from the start of the day, till the last seconds that i was about to see you.
i still remembered, i will never eat in front of you. however, this second time,you've "reserved" a place for us to dine in. "oh my! i'm going to eat! i must eat!"
ahaha! that was what kept running in mind when i was in the mrt.
as i make my journey to somerset, i wonder... "where the heck is orchard emarald?!"
even my dear friend who was with me don't seem familiar with the place! i was afraid that we might get lost around the big town area!
as soon as we stepped out of the train, i had this mixed feeling - happy n worry.
the question of "what will happen next" was my main sentence in mind n i irritate my friend who don't seem at all tension with regards to the meet.
~duh~ obviously! i was the one with prob with you, not him! haha.
we walked out of the mrt station, n saw "Orchard Emerald"
aaahhh... relieved! i read the sms from you again, "level 4 coleman language center"
haha... you know what? we came an hour earlier actually, so we went up to your work place , hhmmm notably cool place. then, we went down and made our way to Orchard Point.
my heart beat was unusually racing faster and faster. i don't know the real reason to it...nervous? tension? anxious? all sorts of feelings filled in me. as we went window shopping, we passed a shop which you intoduced to me once ~ running cats n dogs~ we entered, things have not changed pretty much.
the time was 5.15 pm. we were already at orchard emerald. spotted a suitable place to hide.i wanted to spot you 1st, not you spot me. luck wasnt on my side! i was waiting full of anxiety... sms you and asked your location. when suddenly........
"ring....ring....." my handphone rang. you were on the line. " i saw you. turn behind and look straight." i was startled! "oh no! she spotted me 1st!" suprisingly, i made a quick turn and i think i had an ear to ear smile.... am i right to say?!
"ooo...thats her... ahh...its been long since i last met you. i miss you terribly. i am sorry for watever i did in the pass. i promise the same won't happen again... how i wish we had met somewhere where there is no one around... i would surely give you a hug.cos i miss you dearly..." that was what i said to myself as i walked towards you. i remembered i do not know how to react. you were smiling, i miss your smile.
seriously, i really felt like hugging you instantly. but thinking that it was crowded with people who were passing by, i kept my desires...
so we walked towards the orchard point.n walked n walked.......not knowing our exact destination. i was about to cross the road,careless me, didn't realised a van was speeding, u held me n stopped me. and again, my heart was running at a rate of 10000000000000km per minute. haha. i somehow knew you wanted to hold me, since, both of us didnt know how to react, you kept it to yourself.
we strolled a long way n noticed we had no place in mind. you suggest we made a U turn. after that long walk... n a U turn. haha. so we went to takashimaya. and you brought us to a "restaurant" to have our dinner. and remember something? wan said something before we entered, "assalamualaikum" hahaha!!!
we didn't do much talking at first, until some point, wan and you teased me about my ex. :) i was the highlight of the meet huh?! you oredered few dishes, most of them involved chillies. so i could not take much of them, ended up, i only ate rice and the gravy of the tom yam? was it?
after the meal, we went for walk around orchard. i got heated up, from cold, i got heated and start my "manja" after a while at orchard, the night got bore, you suggested "why not we take the mrt and on the way we see where we can alight."
we agreed.
amazingly the train was not packed even though it was Friday night. we got ourself a seat each. i sat between you n wan. or was it i sat beside you and wan opposite us? hehe.BUT one thing i remembered clearly was you didn't get to see my face all these while, cos everytime you looked, i either look down or i turn away. but i always "stare" at you in a way with my manja look :) but i never did gave you the chance to see me. hence, you took the advantage by looking at my refelction through the pane of the train. i wasnt fooled!i know you had your eye on my reflection and were smiling away. i turned myself and look out the pane on our side. you pulled me near wanting to see me. making me blush~shy~hehe. "ala... takpe lah, tengok tudung pun tudung lah" hehe... you commented after i refused to lok at you. wan was giggling at watching "drama cum comedy" infront of him.
finally we arrived at sembawang. there was pasar malam. it attracted all three of us. we alighted at that particular station.
we went to mcDonalds to have our drink.i forgot what we had. oh yes! you had your tea! you sat infront of me. and wan beside me. and again, you two planned to teased me with that guy named matt! haha! that sissy. before you even said anything, you were about to actually.... unexpectedly, "PIANG!!!" on tight slap landed on your left arm! haha! ouch! i know, it hurts! and i also know that till now, you still remember it. aha... i saw that shocked on your face... i pity you. after our drink, we decided to go back to hometown complex - causeway point.
it was already 9 pm, and most shops were getting ready for closing. as we went up the escalator, i remembered, i stood behind you, and "plunged" onto you. ahaha. plunged! tts dangerous huh esp on the escalator. i was so manja and happy thati loop my arm in yours.i don't care my surrounding. you responded well. i was glad.
finally, i was tired and we went to the first floor and sat at the bench infront of the royal sportinghouse. i took out my newly bought "me to you" keychain, unopened and passed it to you. i sat beside you. arm looped in yours, "you do the opening ceremony" i said to you. i knew wan was kind of awkward as we were already warmed up. he made his excuse to go to the gents. what were you doing at that moment when you shook your head in agreement? you were "smooching" ahaha... i mean, you placed half of the keychain which belongs to me on your lips. i was touched. i placed my head in your shoulder and played with your fingers - you still smooching with my piece of keychain. when wan came out, you were done with it. ahaha! he really made his business! ahaha!
it was 10.15 pm and it was time to part. after that 11 months of seperation, it was hard to leave you again. my heart went slumped and heavy when we were about to leave causeway point. at the bus interchange, i was extremely quiet.when wan boarded his bus, we are alone. FINALLY, the moment that i've been waiting for, you and me, alone,like we used to hang out together. i started breathing hard to control my emotions. we sat at the seats of the bus terminal. everytime my bus came, i said, "wait for another" bus by bus... it was soon 10.45pm. by hook or by crook, i still have to leave. you boarded the bus with me. in the bus, i wept silently and lightly. tears started flowing down my cheek. you were holding my palm tight, though.
we reached my stop!!! my heart sank!!! worst than titanic! you too, did not want to leave me. you sent me up, till the lift level. i was breathing rather hard and didnt want to leave. i kept moving foawrd then i turned back to you. then you followed me to the staircase landing. i didnt know what exactly to do. at the moment i don even know what i want. all i wanted was not to leave you. and suddenly, i gave you a big long hug. my first hug ever ~ even the 1st time i met you, i never did that. IT WAS SUCH A PEACEFUL MOMENT, a moment where two seperated hearts became one again. it was such a memorable night for me... and up to date, i dont really remember those hours spent during the day, but the night we hugged.
if only it was possible, i wanted to hug you like that for eternity. it was time to really part. you see to me as i pressed my door bell. ahaha... until now you teased me about how awful my door bell was and still is!
couldnt help laugh.....
i went in straight into my room, ignoring all voices asking me does the food taste nice...n bla bla bla...all those insignificant questions that i had to answer. but all i did was shut them with 3 words : it was great! i slumped myself on my bed. took out the keychain and placed it to my chest. i cried. hot tears rolled down my cheek, i buried my face in my pillow. i couldnt take it. took my handphone and dialled your number...
the next day, unplanned, we met again. we went to the CCK park before i sent you off. it was 11 am. you had to leave. i sent you off at the gantry of the lrt. i sat at a low parapet.sadness filled in me again. but it wasnt as bad as the night before.before you left, you handed me a bag of gift. i took a peep inside... it was a small cute teddy which you named it "nur ummiya" ehehe. n again, seconds before you left, it was a torture. i was holding back my tear, you gave me a peck of kiss on my forehead. oohhhh dear! all the more i was sad to see you go. and that kiss was also the very first i received from you :) it was memorable too!
since then, we kept meeting each other at any possible time :)
now, its been two years since that meet... however, i had forgotten the most significant date. sorry, i was too busy with my O levels which has already started since the 3rd Nov. i only realised on the 3rd nov after my papers. but thank goodness, you were soo understanding and all the more you wanted me to focus.
until then.... i promise to care for you cos i love you...
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cOnfus~ED Paranoia Freak @ 8:56:00 PM ||
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