Saturday, November 08, 2003
..::wHaT hapPEneD tO mE?::..
hey peeps!yestreday after the malay ppr, i went to doc. took my medicine. argh! the medicine prescribed was exactly the same as the one i bought the day before ~ if i know tak amik sey smlm... aiyah....ere goes my $$$....
hmm...funny...e doc ask me ~ "HAVE YOU BEEN DIETING AGAIN?!" now i wonder how he got to know that i diet few yrs back? ya its true that i have been dieting when i was younger;when i was 14....but then, i was given a damn strict warning not to diet again. i cant eat too much, n cant eat too little. if i eat too much, i'll get my appendix suffer and oh my... my weight.... ahahaha.... if i eat too little, i will still get my appendix suffer and my worst nightmare will also attack me ~ gastric. ahahaha.
let me recall.........why i diet wen before that i jus couldnt be bothered..................??? ahahahahah??!!!! yeah... back then in sec 3, Dr Mabel did told me to do some self reflection n flashback. "do i need to diet? why m i being self concious? what makes me diet this way? why this drastic changes? do i love myself?do i have to always skip meals all the time?" that was some qs i need to ponder 2 yrs ago wen things started to get really heywired,hospitalised n got my self poked unwarned by a male doctor!!! yeah rite! it was................argh!undescribable! he shud have told me 1st,at least! or maybe he noes better ah..hehehe.
wat Dr mabel had told me to do, i didnt do, until jus now i was soo stressed out - dono abt wat, i ate alot of choc.then it got me thinking.... "eh ya ah, dr M had asked me several qs last few yrs, n i didnt even tink abt it,until now."
it all started wen i was 14,sec 2 lah tt time. yah, i was ovrweight,but jus by tt mere 10%. n at tt time, i cudnt careless abt my appearance and stuff like tt ah. cos i m happy with wat i have n i m happy mah! ahaha. however, early 2000, a fren seriously sound me, "eh gemuk ah kau" ahahaha... y was tt so? ooo...cos i didnt have space to move out wen a teacher called me. ok,fine, i felt a "pang!" on the heart. i was stabbed damn hard ovr ere.i controlled my emotions n acted cool.... the nite i went home...i started tinking...yah...wat he said was true. furthermore it was a HE who commented that.... ok...tt was sooo embarassing esp wen he said infront of several other guys n gals too... i have a reputation too u noe... ahaha...
since then, i started this stupid ting named DIET! i started dieting. my diet was drastic.
but it worked. i started shrinking. ahaha... i mean, i lose weight...alot. drsatically. i didnt eat. i only eat once in every two days. imagine tt?! i adopted that habit and then i got lazier to eat. yes, i was happy with the change, but i wasnt happy abt my health. but i didnt take notice n only realised it until it had worsen. told you it was stupid!!!!
but hey, tell you one ting, they really saw my changes - my cheeks flatten n my smile was even sweeter then. ahaha. really not kidding.(n i miss tt...wish cud b tt size again...ahaha) i can even wear my old clothes back! was sooo happy!
until.... i was down to earth in pain, i was sent to the hospital for a thoroungh check.
and guess wat?! the doctor cudnt find the rite diagnosis! argh! all simply because,
i didnt have enuf dietary fibre and my stools were blocking most area.
ok, frm ere i went on several follow up n missed school most of the time... ahahaha...n tt time, if i don go sch, i wud miss someone teribbly!!! but i had to skip. follow up by follow up, still cudnt find the rite diagnosis! i fed up n stop going n only depend on food. proper food since then.
however, i didnt eat enuf. i was on n off with my meals.so...another side of story bout me tummy... rite side hurts badly n was rushed again to hospital.... tis time, mild appendicitis....luckily i went early...if not, i wud been dragged to the Operation theater for tt. tts wen i get to meet Dr mabel...mabel tan aka mabelline... hehehehehe. ok, so it was a mild one, neednt go for OP,so all they did was jab me n put me on drip. i spent my days in the hospital gettg the thing soften again for abt 3 days like tt. actually longer, but i reacted quick. so good lah... anyway, boring pun kat hospital tu... so after tt go up n down TTSH. n now, i only need to go for check up once every 2 yrs. to do checks lah...
ahaha... after my N level, that 3 mths holidays was a food feast for me!!! i forgot abt my figure, for someone who got nothing to do at home, she started eating and only realised that i had gained too much weight when i want to go back to sch the yr aft ~ which is tis yr. oklah fine, my uniform...argh...faham2 jelah eh...hahahahaha!!! CANT BELIEVE IM ACTUALLY POSTING THIS ISSUE OF MINE!
ok now, im like this.... back to square one.... cannot mantain... i only managed to slim down for tt 3 yrs only... imagine all thos ecritics i received frm my fellow relatives..... esp those aunts~ tau tau lah makcik2 ni sume.... kekadang bingit jugak. suke sgt tgk org kurus tapi berpenyakit. dah bagus tu aku sihat skarang ni~itu pun kekadang suffer gak. hais... i really don udrstand them..
actually selera mkn dtg mendadak cos ade seseorg tu buat kan wafi selera mkn... anyway, die pun happy tgk aku mkn cos dulu...sikit nye susah aku nak mkn dpn die...hahaha... tul tak? ;) 464
tapi wafi tau, wafi yg terovr sgt!!!! hahahahahaha....
fine... i'll show u the result nanti ~ insyaAllah, kalau kesihatan memberansangkan.
till then, wait n see.... ;) ahahahaks! korg jgn ah ketawa kan ke padang hina ke...
actually, aku tak caya lah aku lang korg ni sume...
selama ni, cume diri aku je sorg yg tau asal aku nak sgt diet......
bubbly bubbyessssss
cOnfus~ED Paranoia Freak @ 12:15:00 PM ||
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